trying not to hope too hard for what i want...

[I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.]

-chairlift, "bruises"

[While we're here, let's see what happens
What we got, got to lose
While we're tidal and flexed on a full moon
It'd be a sure, sure shame to not to]

- imogen heap, "tidal"

[Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down]

- iron and wine, "flightless bird, american mouth"

true story....

i think you're cute.

these are my final words to you:

i wish i never met you.

Learning: what not to do. too bad i'm learning through experience and not by word-of-mouth.

Appreciating: my friends and family, like whoa. they keep me sane!

Loving: laughing so hard that i cry.

Reading: 'What the What' by Dave Eggers. it's about a sudanese refugee (a "lost boy") who, after surviving genocide, moves to America only to feel completely lost and unfulfilled in a place he thought he would find refuge.

Listening: passion pit, like whoaaa. bird and the bee. jon hopkins. lenka. lau. broken social scene. au revoir simone. azure ray. the books. dirty projectors. camera obscura. imogen heap. frou frou. stars. sigur ros. the weepies. sooo much more.

Eating: i'm a poor student. my meals consist of primarily pasta and vegetables. very exciting!

Watching: i'm watching "Gilmore Girls" right now. I'm not really sure why I was obsessed with this show. there is just waaay too much talking on this show. kind of annoying.

Inspired: by so many things! i've always been interested in photography, but i'm actually incorporating it into my life these days. Music -- feels great to have it back in my life! Friends -- i feed off their energy.

You and me between the sheets

It just doesn't get better than this

walk on cuz you can't go back now...

i need you so much closer.

I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

things i've grown to obsess:

i love taking pictures -- all the time.

i love zooey deschanel.

i love

i'm trying to teach myself the piano...

i love music.

especially in a stream.

i love michael cera.

my dream man.

i wanna be happy.

i wanna wear dresses all the time.

i wanna have dance offs.

i love my friends.

be you

time to let go.

letitgo.

Euphoria,

i can't take any more of Yah.

i'm losing it